My
Illusion
AutumnLaren Benson
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This heavy heart of mine drags me
further down an unfamiliar path
Forcing me to ask
Am I facing up or down?
Inside or out?
My frustration is stirred by the inability
to pull myself together
Wrenching anxiety twisting and squeezing
At my already mutated heart
My loneliness jerks
me along
Tormenting my heart and soul
I am lost
Without you by my side
The drinks go down
The days go by
and to my surprise
the pain subsides
Only to be replaced
with the satisfaction
that I was wrong
all along
The entire tale was an illusion
I forced myself to believe
A dream that I
needed to have
to get by
As time would come to heal my wounds
I’ve realized that
I didn't need you
My hearts blurred vision
finally clears
with a beat that now beats new
My heart is free from struggle
My love is free from you.
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