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in issue five
poetry afterthoughts take me back
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every issue future
issues previous
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Several years later I found myself sorting through
memorabilia once again, this time in preparation to make a
long-distance move. After
countless hours of sorting and packing, I bid my first
apartment farewell and headed off to a new adventure. With this move, I had finally been given the
opportunity to create the life I had imagined. Instead of
venturing forth in search of new experiences, I was paralyzed
by fear. I wasted the first few months of my new life eating
chips and watching talk shows.
I spent my time feeling sorry for myself; too busy
wondering if I'd made the right decision to take advantage of
my new surroundings. In the midst of a particularly pathetic attack of
“poor-me-syndrome,” I found myself re-reading old journal
entries and remembering the “good old days.”
In the back of one of my old journals, in my teen-aged
scrawl, I had written, “I
am the master of my fate and the captain of my soul.”
For a long while I sat there staring at those words.
I conjured up the vision of the magazine ad where I had
first read that powerful declaration and tried to remember how
I'd felt at 17. I recalled staring at the words in that shampoo ad,
and feeling a surge of self-assurance.
It was then, for the first time I understood that I was
responsible for creating my own reality through the choices I
made. At 17, I vowed to become the master of my fate.
Somewhere between then and now, I had forgotten the
meaning of those words and their impact on my life. It was only when I was finally ready to be the master of my
fate, I truly began to experience life fully.
By bravely embracing those words as an adult, I finally
exercised their power to influence my life. I have recently moved again, and I haven’t for a
moment felt sorry for myself.
I am adjusting beautifully to another beginning in a
new city. Being
the master of my fate and the captain of my soul is hard work,
yet the power in those words urges me on in the deepest of
worry or sorrow. And
in the moments when I experience true bliss, I know it’s
because I live those words.
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